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2003-11-18 5:32 p.m. i thought i was going to throw up. all because of one person. one person who i see for an hour once a week. but i don't think he realizes how terrified i still am of him. i don't think he knows that every tuesday night i start thinking about the hour that i must spend with him the next day, and that wednesday morning i wake up with my stomach all a-flutter and my hands starting to shake and sweat. but perhaps he does know. perhaps he likes to have his students feel a bit intimidated by him -- they'll do what he says that way and work hard. does he ever get frustrated with me? does he ever wonder if he should just stop teaching me when it takes me 10 minutes to pick up one concept? am i his "slowest" student. it's rather weird being someone's worse student when you came from being the best student of a different teacher. but he said i was progressing quickly -- or was that just gaff?
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